Courtesy- Saswat PatnaikIt was indeed hard for me to leave my family, my loved ones and travel so far off. But it was a dream which I had carved for myself since I realized the fun of having ones own dreams. I was said dreams never come true. The reality check was always in front of me. An average student from school with varied interest areas, definitely success of this world was not meant for me. It was not my belief per se, but the belief of those who were supposed to be my ideals. Teachings were not something which I got easily. Being one amongst the lot, I was never treated as special. The generality of life if not destined but was imposed on me. Something different, something extraordinary was not me as I was one among the lot.
I definitely didn't have any passion as I was not best in what I was sent to do. Education for me was a medium to learn rather to prove. My ideas were not considered out of the box but hardly qualified to be any idea. Running in the lot for grabbing the first seat has never been me.But I had a motive in my life.
Time passed and I was happy for being what I am, what I have been. Petty race, petty fights amused me but hardly ever attracted me. I definitely didn't need a shoulder to cry on. I definitely didn’t enjoy being one proving my power, simply because I respected myself being one with no great powers.
Ideas indeed ran through my mind, not unique but very common ones. And yes I did feel special and passionate about them as they were mine. It was never the race of doing something different and proving but it was about doing what I wanted to. My race was not with the mass as the mass was the reason for what I have been and not what I could be. Peers were never hurdles but bridges on my way. My journey would have been dry and effortless without the world racing with me.
Dreams never come true yet I am living it. I am still carving my life at my own desire with a hope to have it till the time I want to. An average student from school if not successful on the victory meter but definitely is successful on the satisfaction meter. Life is not meant to be different or to different but to be and remain what we are.
2 comments:
When some one writes for his/her own world full of thoughst its always difficult to place all the outbursting emotions in a place whereby one can actually relish and cherish the charm of something which he/she has penned down. After reading it, it was felt indeed the same whereby one can relate this post of yours to oneself as it is more or less a far fledged arena of dreams which one wants to conquer but is always afraid of new hardhsips and events. Indeed a pleaure to read this as by this one doesnt feel to bob its head and can relate to oneself. Great going!!:)
Ma'am, I just love your writings. You remind me of someone who is a free thinker, who is not bogged down by the peer pressure. I specifically liked the 25 Raondom things about me post.
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